I am returning from my hiatus (please note the sarcasm) and am trying to get back on track with the website and blog. I know it has been a LONG time since my last post, but I am hoping to be able to squeeze in a minute or two, here or there, to post new things that are going on with our family.
Having two children is definitely very different than having one child. Emily is turning ten weeks and I am just beginning to feel a little bit sane again. She is an amazing baby and I love her to death! Despite having a child with a great disposition, our family & life feel as though they have been turned upside down. The normally in-control momma is now a raging loony who greets her husband (usually about once a week) at the door bawling. As if my bawling was not welcome enough, it is often met with the louder bawling of both of the kids. I still don’t know why this man keeps coming back or why he doesn’t just turn around and walk right back out when he sees us. I guess he must love us (or else I am really good at pulling the guilt card) because he returns no matter what mental state I am in.
Oh, and in case you were wondering my house is now a pit, my laundry is lying in piles (each load takes around one week to process), and I do go for days without showering. I have lowered my standards for myself and now feel proud if we are all dressed before my husband gets home, if both kids are changed (let’s not talk about potty training, m-kay?), we have clean diapers (yes, I am cloth diapering, crazy freak of nature that I am!), and there is something to eat (bread does count as a meal, right?) I have made peace with the fact that I will not win the Mom of the Year award….well, at least not this year, and am just going with the flow these days.
Despite the craziness and feeling a bit out of control- I am so proud of my family. The transition, although not as smooth as I had hoped, has been made and we are now a family of four rather than a family of three. If only the transition was as easy as it is in the game of Life. You land on the spot to add a person, pick a blue or pink peg, plop them in the car, and then keep on trucking. We are trucking along, but it seems like we are taking a really long-winded detour of insanity these days. One of these days we will be back on the clean & organized path, but until then I will just hold on to my application for the Mom of the Year award.
Oh, in case you were wondering who beat me for the honor this year…it was Britney Spears. Gawd, that girl gets everything!